Give me another chance !!!!!

"You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved,and you will never understand what pain really is until you have lost it"

There is one universal truth that who born, will have to die. So according to law created by God everyone die once and then rebirth again. I know I have committed mistake..…So that I got the punishment of dying every moment. I don’t dare to death, but really this death which I am suffering daily is more painful than the actual death.
In death one emancipate from everything …this world, relations, own body for that one struggle whole life. But in this death I am not emancipating from anything, in addition in this death I am getting the support of my tears. My tears have always objection with me. They wanted to see this world. I was afraid that there is nothing in this world to see. But they start to behave like a brat. I told them that there is no importance of you in this world so that I want you to remain in eyes only. I used to be very strong from heart so that I never gave room to my tears to come out of my eyes. But they were so smart they prayed to God no. of times and as we know God listen to those who remember him by soul. They got the permission from God and when God decide something who can deny that order. Even God was aware that I would not let the tears out of my eyes. But the creator of this world whose rule start from the creature of this universe was much more stick to his promise, which he has given to my tears.
The actual things start.. By unknowingly I was committing mistake. Everything that I was doing…it seems that everything was planned before I was just following those steps. After some time when the result came out I felt that the earth has been removed beneath my feet. I was astonished to see this ….how it can be happened.. I asked this question to myself thousand of times and then realized my mistakes. I felt that I have lost everything ….everything. Because I lost someone and that one was everything for me. I cried …. I cried…. I don’t know how many times but I know if there is 24 hours in a day then my eyes utilize most of the time by crying….my heart was giving favor.
On every moment in life my mind used to take the decision but this time it was out of order….and became mostly affected part of my body. The tears were on cloud nine. Their wish to see this world came true. They were celebrating on this moment. My eye was helpless with my heart because it was written by that almighty. When my tears came out from my eyes then first my eyelid felt their presence then my cheek….it came in flow so that my both hand came forward to carry them. I have kept them in my eyes for so many years but they will come out in that way I never imagined. My tears gave me a look which shows that they were happy, they are still continue to see this world. My tears also gave thanks to the person who was my biggest strength but the same time my biggest weakness.
But one tear understood what they have done wrong. It realized that for their happiness they have given me a pain, for which there is no remedy in this world. That single tear prayed to God that if this will be became a cause for them to see this world they would have not asked this boon. But the majority of tears were against of that single tear they made a noise so much so the God didn’t hear the voice of that single tear. It was the only tear, which wants to remain in my eyes for forever. I was happy that still there is someone who can understand me. My hope from others to understand me began to loose after this incident which made me like I was lost in desert where I don’t know where to go…where is my destination, even I started to doubt what is my destination. My condition has became like there is everything when u need nothing and nothing when u need something.....